11/4/11

Yesterday was a very dreary day and I had very little energy by the time I got home from work. I decided that I would forego my afternoon walk. I had experienced no significant synchronicity during the day. I attribute this to the fact that at work, things have not been great. There is a lull and everyone is on edge about losing their jobs: tension which is amplified by the fact that there is not a lot to do to creates an overall negative energy. At home, I made some miso and settled in, immediately my phone started ringing. Since I have started this project, several friends have said they can feel the positive energy radiating and suddenly I am giving pep talks to various people throughout the day. It seems the more you talk about being inspired, the more inspired you feel. The energy is building and I can hardly imagine how expanded I am going to feel by month's end. I mean, this is only the 4th day!


The evening's meditation on LOVE was not really one that spoke to me, but for anyone with who might have issues with self-worth or self-acceptance, it could be beneficial. This is the first time I have done a meditation guided by a woman and I found it almost instantly, VERY deeply relaxing, so for those who seek deep calm, this one is terrific.

After I finished, I decided to try the previous night's experiment again, only, inspired by Chrissie's comment, I wanted wait a little longer and see if the feelings spread through my entire body. Again I said things that were true and emotionally charged and the same feelings filled my chest, however, I found that if I let the feeling fill me, my whole body just seemed warm, calm and normal. When saying negative things the feeling stayed in my chest and felt like a compression. After these, I said a few things not knowing if they were true of false and observed the sensations. I cannot wait to see whether my body knows things that my mind has no access to.